Last night, I attended an “Ask the Author” event with my Writing Group. It was different in that it was setup like more of a poetry workshop. We were given several handouts of bible verses, and we had to pick one. I decided to use John 15, since this particular chapter on love and abiding seems to be the theme of the last two weeks for me. God has definitely been speaking through that chapter. The poem below is what I came up with last night. I added a few more words this afternoon. It tells the journey of how God had me to relearn what love is after being in an emotionally abusive marriage for 20 years.
My breakthrough came when I heard a message by Joyce Meyer, stating that in order to heal from abuse, we need to study as many bible verses on love as possible. Romans 8, seemed to tear me up the most. After studying about God’s love for a while, he allowed me to feel it. I was so overwhelming, that I was almost knocked off my feet. God never does anything halfheartedly. The reckless love that God showed me cannot be put into words. Sometimes, I would praise dance, and pretend as if I was a tree, and his love would take over.
At the beginning of the summer, I had to face some very tough trials, and as God revealed himself to Moses, he revealed himself to me, allowing his entire Spirit to penetrate through me for a good four to five hours, reminding me that he was there, holding my hand, and ready to walk me through another storm. This poem combines the love God taught me a few years ago, and the love that he poured on me a few months ago. Blessings!
Abide My Love, Dance With Me
Let his love so overflow,
Through my veins from head to toe.
Fill his presence on overwhelm,
Till that love tank is set at helm.
I now know no other love,
It’s not abuse,
Exploiting of doves.
For his love, we can’t explain.
No real words,
just like the pain.
Helps us heal from the abuse.
No more doormat,
He cut me loose.
Thought it was something that I’d just heard,
Your love engulfed me,
Felt so absurd.
The love you showed,
Your love, it jerked me into a kiln.
Oh, now I know, “it” was the One,
Given to me,
Straight through your Son.
You are so dear, so dear to me,
To let me feel to this degree.
Oh, my Lord, almost too much,
To let me feel your Loving Touch.
Healing those places hurt by trauma,
Loving so fast,
it’s like my momma,
For it’s your love that healed my trauma,
Loving so fast,
it’s like my momma.
No greater love,
No one can copy,
You have the patent,
You own no sloppy.
It makes me dance, Just like a tree,
My arms are waving and feeling free.
I dance and sway, move to the right,
Your love reminds me
“No need to fight”.
Abide in Me, and I in you
Your love protects and helps me through.
You see when everyone is gone,
Your love is constant,
Helps me go on.
It makes me wonder,
How can it be,
That you decided to dance with me.
I can’t believe I danced so high,
And with your love, we touched the sky.
I can’t believe you came so close,
To showing your Spirit,
It made me roast.
In your embrace,
It took some time,
Just pouring and pouring,
Now I’m new wine.
If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.
Herein is my Father glorified, that ye bear much fruit; so shall ye be my disciples. John 15: 7-8